Capacity, p.14
Capacity, page 14
“Tell me what happened, Lumi. I want to know. I don’t care how ugly it is.” He picked up my hand and kissed my wrist. “I want to hear it from your mouth.”
He already knew. I could tell by the way he spoke. You didn’t get scars like mine from some childhood injury. Scars like those came at a steep price.
“I tried to kill myself,” I whispered, not able to meet his gaze. I listened to him push out a short puff of air through his nose and I glanced at him. His eyes were shut as he soaked in my words.
When he looked at me again, I was holding back tears. What if he didn’t know and hearing me say it solidified the fact that I was weak and selfish?
Knight’s strong fingers dug into my jawline as he held my gaze captive. “Promise me you won’t ever do that shit again, Lumi.” His voice was a low growl.
“I promise,” I said nearly breathless. I hadn’t been willing to make that promise before he asked. I didn’t think I could hold up my end of the bargain before but with him looking at me like that I had no choice. I didn’t want to leave Knight. It would hurt too much and I couldn’t bear to think about the way it would make him feel.
I cared about him. I cared about what he thought and I cared about his pain. He couldn’t suffer through something like that. I didn’t want to do anything that would take me away from him either because the longer I was with him the more I couldn’t picture a life without him.
Once he had my promise, we collided into another kiss, lying back on the bed with him settling between my thighs. My pussy throbbed and ached for him. “You mean too much to me. I can’t lose you,” he whispered against my ear before raining kisses down my neck. The head of his dick pressed against me and I shuddered, needing to feel him inside me.
I wanted him to make me feel again. I wanted to grab hold of the warmth he always draped me in and never let go. I wanted to breathe that feeling.
“I’m not going anywhere,” I told him. His mouth moved from my neck to my breasts. He took each nipple in his warm mouth, sucking until they tightened into rigid peaks for him. Then he moved down my stomach kissing my navel and running his lips along my c-section scar. He paused there momentarily and I felt the adoration pouring from him into me. Like he was saying a prayer before he moved down to my thighs. His fingertips dug in, dimpling my flesh with his grip.
I opened for him, spread my legs and offered myself to him. Only him. He breathed my scent and stared at me like he didn’t know what to do. Anticipation hammered against my chest.
“Please, Knight. I need to feel you,” I whimpered.
“I could stare at you forever,” he muttered against my pussy lips. He kissed them before spreading me open. “You are so beautiful, Lumi.” He kissed my clit and my breath stumbled up my throat and out of my mouth. With a gentle swipe of his tongue, he took the first taste and I knew I’d never let another man touch me the way he did.
I fell back against the cool sheets, tunneling my fingers through his blond silk. The sensation of his stubble made me buzz. It was the perfect roughness against my soft inner thighs. My hips lifted to meet his deliberate tongue strokes.
“Oh, god,” I moaned, drowning in my own pleasure. Flames engulfed me while Knight’s mouth sucked and licked my clit. My hips rolled in a circle while I fucked his face like a woman with no morals.
“So good,” he groaned against me. His growly timbre vibrated against me sending jolts through my center. Instinct moved my body in loops pulling and pushing my waistline so I rocked in tune with Knight’s mouth. With his magical tongue.
Lick.
Suck.
Groan.
I came so hard.
I wanted to curl into a ball and tremble until I fell asleep but I needed more of Knight. When he came from between my legs, his face glistened with me. My juices were sparkling diamonds in the night sky. He leaned in and kissed me. I pulled his lips between mine one at a time, tasting my flavor. I moaned at the earthy sweet taste.
“I’ve been waiting for this for so long,” he spoke against my mouth, pressing his cock against my slick pussy.
“Me too.” I didn’t recognize my own voice. I was needy and hungry. With one thrust, he was inside me.
I was far from a virgin but the way Knight stretched me, made me cry out. Pain laced with pleasure. His thick cock moved in and out, hitting spots tucked deep inside me that I didn’t know existed. My entire body clenched and relaxed with the cadence of us. I felt my own wetness slipping from me in rivers. Kissing my thighs and sliding down his shaft.
“Knight!” I called out, digging into his strong back with my nails. He drilled deeper…harder. Fucking me until all I could manage were squeaks that resembled his name.
“Fuck. You feel so good, Lumi.” He thrust again, widening me more. It hurt but it was pain steeped in the hottest pleasure. With every grunt and push burying him between my walls, the pain melted away and all I focused on was the satisfaction and fire.
The entire room was so hot it should have burned to the ground. Knight and I set off sparks. I couldn’t remember a time where I felt so treasured and appreciated. He worshipped my body. He made me feel sexy and beautiful and so damn satisfied.
He reached between our bodies and found my clit with his fingers. He massaged and pinched it until I came. My climax fell around us like rain. It crashed into me, making my pussy clamp down around his width. My eyes snapped shut and a gasp tore from me.
“That’s right, Lumi. Shatter for me. I want to feel you come all over my cock.” His gruff words pushed bolts of trembling energy through my veins and I shook from the impact.
“Oh my god!” It was a hoarse screech doused in slick heat. Knight exploded inside me. Throbbing. Pulsing. Panting.
“Fuck, Lumi…” He dragged my name out like a paintbrush across a canvas. One singular line of sound.
My body hummed and sang Knight’s praises even after he pulled out and lay beside me, sex-drunk and happy. I was in the same boat. I couldn’t stop smiling if I wanted to.
“That was perfect,” I said. I rested my head against his chest and listened to his heartbeat. It was furious and proud.
“I don’t think the words exist to describe how that felt.” He pushed tumbled locks of my hair back from my face. There was that warmth again. The same warmth he always offered me. He was January sunshine. Even when I was cold he shone on me.
Realization stumbled into me. That warm feeling that always thumped through me when I was with him was my heart. Knight revived my broken, battered heart. It beat for him.
“I want this more,” He said, gesturing between us. “I want nights in bed with you and breakfast in the morning.” He kissed my messy hair and slid his finger down the bridge of my nose.
“As long as you’re cooking breakfast, I’m down,” I teased. I drew invisible loops on his chest until they turned into invisible infinity symbols.
“I can do that.” He paused a beat. “Lumi, I know this is fucked up timing but…you’re on something, right?”
“Yes,” I laughed. “I have an IUD. We’re good.”
“Good,” he chuckled.
“You don’t want kids?” I quizzed. I knew he never had any with Hazel but I never asked if he wanted any eventually.
“Nah. If I didn’t have them with Hazel, it’s not happening. I love kids and I love helping them but I think I like not being a parent. I have so many demons that I don’t think I’d be the best dad.”
“You’d make an excellent father, Knight but I understand your hesitance. I don’t blame you.”
“I’m glad we’re on the same page about kids. It’s hard trying to find someone who understands what you want and wants the same thing. I know we both have very different reasons for not wanting kids but it still somehow works.” He studied my face before cupping it in his hands. His warm rough palms slid against my skin.
“I don’t know what I’d do if I had to deal with someone pressuring me to have another kid.” I shook my head at the thought. “After losing Kaiden like that I can’t even think of having another child. The fear of losing them would cripple me.” Knight dropped a kiss on the tip of my nose then on each eyelid.
“So are you a dog person or a cat person?” He quizzed.
“Both,” I answered surely.
“Pick one.”
“That’s not fair they’re both so cute and fluffy. I’m not choosing. I love them both.” I snuggled against his hard, smooth body and listened to his laughter cocoon me in richness.
“I like both too but…”
“Then you understand why I’m not choosing,” I countered. Our laughter tangled together in a chorus of happiness and peace. I hadn’t heard that contented sound in so long I forgot what it was like.
“God, Lumi I could look at you all day and night and still never get tired of the way you light up when you laugh. I know it sounds corny but I’d fight the entire world just to see half a smile on your face.” His thumb slid across my bottom lip heightening the urge to smile just for him. To blossom and open my petals toward the light. I couldn’t stay closed up forever and Knight was determined to work his way into my heart.
“It’s not corny,” I said softly. Feathers brushed against my insides as my mind put his words on instant replay.
That man had a way with words.
He had such a way with words that we stayed up for hours falling deep into conversations that excited my brain. We talked until our words turned into snores. It was the first night since I moved to Connecticut that I didn’t kiss Kaiden’s picture and clutch his Hot Wheels to my chest.
I whispered goodnight to him in my mind before I drifted off though.
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CHAPTER 12
“Could you not snap pictures of me while I’m covered in dirt?” I frowned at Knight from the flowerbed. He wanted to get some shots for his portfolio to show and evidently, watching me prep the soil for winter was the way to go.
He cracked a smile and let the expensive camera drop on the thick black strap it was connected to. “Can I help it if you’re the most beautiful thing in an entire flowerbed full of asters?”
“I’m not. Take pictures of the flowers.” I still couldn’t help smiling.
“I have to showcase human subjects too, Lumi.” I shot him a look that he laughed at right before he picked the camera up and started snapping me again. He was lucky he was irresistible or I would have stormed in the house. I had dirt streaks on my forearms and I’m sure all over my face but Knight insisted that even smeared in soil I was perfect. Even though I playfully waved him off, hearing that made my heart thump harder.
When my phone rang in the pocket of my gardening apron, I pulled off my glove and fished around for it. It was a number I didn’t recognize but I answered anyway, sitting on the porch.
“Hello?”
“Hi…um, is this Ms. Foster? From Lakeview? The nurse…” A familiar voice stumbled and stammered on the other end but I couldn’t place the person.
“Yes, this is Ms. Foster. Who’s calling?” I asked after giving up on trying to guess the mystery caller.
“Um, it’s me, Zach. From Lakeview. You said I could call you if I needed to talk.”
I blinked a few times and said, “Zachary, Hi. I knew I recognized your voice. Is everything okay?”
“I just need to talk and you’re the only person who offered to just talk to me. I mean the only person who wasn’t obligated to offer.”
“I’m all ears, Zachary. What’s up?”
He went quiet on the other end but I still heard him breathing. It was a trembling breath that made my stomach turn into steel knots. Something was bothering him deeply. I felt it in his weighty silence.
“You know where the McDonald’s is on Chain Street?”
“I do. You wanna meet there and talk?” My voice was soft and gentle.
“Yeah, I’d like that.”
“Okay, I’ll be there in ten minutes.” I ended the call and looked at Knight who was peering at me curiously.
“Someone needs your help, right?” He walked over and pulled me to my feet.
“You know Zachary Morrow?”
“He’s a senior, right?”
“Yeah. He comes to my office nearly every day and I know something is going on with him. I always try to coax it out of him but he never opens up so I’m shocked that he called.”
“You want me to go with you?” Knight examined me through the lens of his camera then put it down.
“I don’t think showing up with Principal Cunningham is what Zach wants,” I laughed a little and reached up to touch his smooth hair. One stubborn piece hung down almost in his eyes.
“I guess you have a point,” he chuckled. “Let me know how everything goes when you get back. I’ll head home.”
“I’ll stop by when I’m done,” I told him. I stood on my tiptoes to kiss his lips and it set my body on fire. Knight’s lips moved from my mouth to my neck and I groaned.
“You keep making those noises and I’m going to show the whole neighborhood how nasty you get when I fuck you and how I lose control when I’m inside of you.”
It had been a week since Knight and I first made love and I couldn’t get enough of feeling him inside of me. It was beyond anything I’d experienced with other men. He took time and learned my body. He made sure I was satisfied first and above all else. Every time I saw him, my body ached and begged for his touch.
“Knight,” I giggled, burying my face in his hard chest. “I have to go. I told Zach I’d be there in ten minutes and I’m out here giggling with you.”
“Is that so bad?” He flashed that golden-boy grin and my heart squeezed.
“Never. I still need to go though.” I went in the house to change and Knight was on my heels. His hands found my hips while we walked up the steps and into my room.
“Before I leave, I get to watch you strip,” he said, falling backward on my bed, clasping his fingers behind his neck. I shot him a wry glance and untied my apron. He watched with his bottom lip tucked between his teeth and his eyes narrowed.
Next, my top came off followed by my pants. Ever since he kissed my scars and still looked at me like I was beautiful, being naked in front of him was nothing. I stood before him clad in a yellow sports bra and yellow and white panties. I zeroed in on the thick erection in his jeans and my belly flopped.
I knew I had to be somewhere but I still needed him. He was a potent drug that I didn’t plan on kicking any time soon.
“Take everything off,” he instructed, gripping his dick through his jeans. I didn’t take orders from anyone. I moved to the tune of my own song and I liked it that way but when Knight tossed out demands like that, something inside me melted.
Throbbed.
Ached.
Burned.
I peeled off my bra and panties while he kicked off his jeans and boxer briefs. I motioned for him to take off the shirt too and he obliged giving me a look at his perfect body. I climbed on top of him, pressing my thighs to his sides. The tip of his cock was aimed right at my entrance.
I was soaking wet between my legs. Knight groaned at the quick slip of friction between us when I leaned over to kiss his neck. While my tongue worked on his skin, he slid inside of me easily, stretching me to fit him like a glove.
“Ride my dick, baby. It’s all yours,” He reached up to pinch my nipples then he followed with his tongue licking and sucking until they turned stiff for him. I tossed my head back and bounced up and down on his cock with reckless abandon, bracing myself on his chest.
My ass clapped against his thighs and it made his cock pulse. His hands traced my deep curves sliding up and down my waistline, landing on my hips. “Fuck, Lumi I can’t get enough of your pussy.” His hands tightened on my hips, controlling my pace while I rolled my waist torturously slow. “Shit, you’re trying to make me come, aren’t you?”
“Yes,” I moaned.
“Work your magic so I can fill you up.” He slapped my ass so hard I yelped, but it made me move even faster on top of him. “Touch your clit for me.” I found my plump clit nestled between slick lips. Knight’s eyes were fixed as I moved around the tight bundle of nerves. His fingers found my nipples again and he squeezed.
I moaned in response, my body jerking involuntarily, twitching with the anticipation of my climax. Heat snaked up my spine forcing drops of perspiration to roll down my back.
“Oh, Knight. I’m about to come.” My words came out in staggered syllables as my orgasm clutched me in its unrelenting grip.
“That’s it, baby,” he growled, squeezing my nipples harder, forcing my spine to curl forward and unintelligible noises to drip from my lips. His hands left my breasts and found their place on my hips again. He thrust up hard and fast, plunging into me from below.
His name ripped from my mouth and pierced the air with all the desire and heat built up in my core.
“Knight!” I dug my nails into his pectoral muscles and he grunted against the flash of pain. In the next second, his cock twitched deep inside of me then shot silky warm jets that made me quiver.
“Shit, Lumi…” He rasped, holding me in place while every drop of him drained into me. I leaned over, pulling his lips into my mouth one at a time while he rubbed my ass.
“Fuck, I gotta go!” I squeaked as I hopped off my golden boy. “Knight, you’re such a bad influence.” I rushed to the bathroom and washed up then threw on a pair of jeans and a sweatshirt. My once pristine bun was a mess of black, static-cloaked strands frizzing around my head like a halo and my skin held a well-fucked glow.
I snatched the hair tie from my waves and let them fall down my back while I tried in vain to smooth my hair down and make it behave. No luck.
Knight was washed up and ready to walk out the door with me and I didn’t miss the chance to fuss at him. “Zach probably thinks I won’t show,” I huffed, locking the door behind us.
“Zach will be there.” Before I got in my car, he snagged my hand in his and pulled me close. “I’m sorry for making you late, Lumi.” He kissed my cheek then smoothed my frizzy hair down.
How could I be irritated with him when he looked at me like that with those sapphire flames dancing in his eyes?
