Stained, p.24
Stained, page 24
“He sees you!” Ava clapped.
He closed his eyes and finished. Maddox walked off stage and Zach looked at T confused. T shrugged his shoulders and started bagging on the drums.
Maddox bound back on stage, “Did you miss me?”
The crowd screamed, and he looked back towards where Harper and Ava stood and laughed out loud, “It has been a long, hot summer,” the crowd yelled.
“I have to tell you I really didn’t think I would make it here, what a fucking maddening month. Do you all know how long it takes to form a nasty little habit?”
The crowd screamed Twenty One Days.
“That’s right and how long does it take to break one?”
They answered again.
“That’s right so tonight we end it right here. The last night on stage in the US for a very longtime, with all of you! I’ll miss you all, but it’s time to get back home. Hit it, T!”
Maddox pulled his guitar strap over his shoulder and smiled.
“Let’s do this”
Twenty one days of regret, twenty one days to forget. Twenty one ways to get through, the day twenty one ways to make it okay.
Sitting thinking, drowning drinking, sinking lower you’re not speaking.
Needing wanting, pushing pulling, suffocating silence is my hearts still beating
Close my eyes thinking of all the ways we should have said our goodbye,
Knowing there was no way. No way to keep you here, to make you stay.
I search to find the answers to let you go, to get over you
I found twenty one days to live thirty years, twenty one days for first and lasts to shed their tears.
Twenty one beats of my heart. feels like twenty one lifetimes apart.
For twenty one days I sat alone, learning twenty one notes that make your name a song.
For twenty one days I sank lower than the Dead Sea, twenty one days down on my knees.
Twenty one habits I formed just to break, hoping twenty one days is all it takes.
To forget the twenty one reasons I count today, those twenty one sins that took you away.
Twenty one days of regret twenty one days to forget. Twenty one ways to get through the day, twenty one ways to make it okay.
Singing strumming, smoking drumming, close my eyes and see you crying
Seeking looking, seeing dying, memories draw me in sinning lying.
I sit and wonder why I’m here, the torments worse when you're not near.
I’ll let go, no way to renew, to make you know.
I dredge the depths to where I fell, face to face with my new hell
I found twenty one days to live thirty years, twenty one days for first and lasts to shed their tears.
Twenty one beats of my heart, feels like twenty one lifetimes apart.
For twenty one days I sat alone, learning twenty one notes that make your name a song.
For twenty one days I sank lower than the Dead Sea, twenty one days down on my knees.
Twenty one habits I will form just to break, hoping twenty one days is all it takes. To forget the twenty one reasons I count today, those twenty one sins that took you away.
The chorus repeated, and the crowd screamed and chanted FUCK YOU!
“Is that what you all want?” Maddox laughed, “Well then how could I refuse, it’s a new day, a new chapter so fuck you all!”
He sang and danced and looked beautiful doing so. He even looked happy: how could he look happy singing that song? Harper felt sick to her stomach.
He didn’t pull anyone onstage, and she was glad he didn’t. Harper sat the rest of the concert, surrounded by his voice and the screams of all the fans. She was emotionally drained and wanted to go home.
The last song of the concert he took his shirt off and wiped his sweaty face and threw it out to the crowd. It almost caused a riot to the left of Harper and Ava.
The concert ended, the crowd thinned out and the girls with backstage passes were all rushing to get in line. Harper stood up and looked at Ava, “If he wanted to talk to me he would have called, I don’t want to…”
“You’ll do it for me?” Ava dragged her to the back of the crowd, “That drummer is fine, fine, fine just what I need to get over number two.”
“Okay but only if you spill it,” Harper looked at Ava and crossed her arms.
Ava pulled out the cute little gray and black floppy hats out of Harpers bag and shoved one on her head, “Here, no one will recognize us now. Put on your shades.”
“This is crazy, we look like we are in disguises,” Harper laughed.
“They’ll think we are covering up our eyes, my god I think I caught my first buzz just off the second hand smoke,” Ava laughed.
“Stop skirting the issue Ava, a name,” Harper pulled her sunglasses on.
“Fine, Luke,” Ava shoved her glasses on.
“Luke Lane, as in Jade’s son, my second cousin, your father’s namesake and God child, who just happens to be five years older than you?” Harper gasped.
“Yeah, yeah, yeah, that one, focus on the task at hand,” Ava blushed and turned away.
They watched as the security guards pulled the younger girls with their parents to the front of the line.
“Speaking of fine looking older men, check out Maddox’s daddy. Damn, he’s yummy,” Ava laughed.
“Oh God I hope they don’t see us,” Harper squatted down as they walked by holding hands and laughing.
“Dodged a bullet,” Ava laughed. “Okay, they have passed stop hiding.”
“Then tell me about Luke.”
“His parents and mine were out to dinner a few months ago. I watched him with his bitch girlfriend all night while a bunch of us hung at the pool. I mean seriously... he’s on leave, and she acts like a complete bitch to him. It pissed me off. He ignored her until she left and he was drinking a lot. Everyone went into sleep and we went swimming. One thing leads to another and well let's just say I practically had to beg him to do me after we teased each other all night. He went down, a first and I swear I have never felt that way before. Then I guess it turned him on, you know the OH MY GOD, OH, AW, YES, MORE, AW, OH GOD LUKE” Ava reenacted her noises loudly, and Harper giggled when people turned around and looked at her Ava looked up at the women in front of them who were scowling at her, “WHAT? That’s what it sounds like when you get off…sorry you two have never been there.”
“AVA,” Harper tried to calm her down.
“Well I’m sure if that were true we could remedy that tonight,” the blonde sneered.
“Like you have a freaking chance,” Ava hissed at her.
“We were in Denver,” she snickered.
“What’s that supposed to mean?” Ava asked.
“You’ll see, after me of course,” she rolled her eyes and looked away.
“Skank ass bitches!” Ava snapped.
And they were escorted in. Ava and Harper were last in line. They stood for thirty minutes and waited.
“I want to go now,” Harper whispered, “Ava I can’t do this, I don’t want to see him. I think I’m going to get sick.”
The two skanky big haired over done pigs walked out smiling and laughed at Ava, “Fucking pigs.”
“Go ahead in.”
T and Maddox walked out of the bathroom chuckling followed by a cloud of smoke. Maddox pulled his hat lower over his eyes and didn’t look up; he had not put on a shirt. He flopped on the couch and pulled his hat over his eyes.
“Did you enjoy the show loves?” T smiled and sat back on the other couch.
“It was great,” Ava smiled.
“So do you want an autograph or photo, or tell me why else would two beautiful ladies be coming back here tonight?” T asked looking Ava up and down.
“Well to say hi, I suppose,” Ava blushed.
“Oh Kitten look at your pink cheeks, so flush and we have yet to begin,” T winked.
Ava blushed deeper.
“Let me ask you something kitten, do you prefer drums or guitar?”
“Well I don’t play either,” Ava was confused, and Maddox chuckled causing his abs to flex but still he said nothing.
“Have you ever held a stick in your hand kitten? Even made of wood it is smooth as silk, shall I show you?”
“Are you talking about your dick?” Ava yelled.
“Well it’s not American, so it’s a bit bigger than a dick, it’s a cock love, come have a look.”
Maddox threw his arm over his face trying not to laugh.
“Does that shit really work for you?”
“Um yes, twice tonight so far but I hear the third time’s a charm, show me kitten, show me…”
“You’re a fucking pig, S!”
“Oh Kitten its T…”
“Seriously you need a reality check band boy,” Ava rolled her eyes.
“How many people have licked you from inside out…?”
“Oh God…” Harper held her stomach.
“That’s it see she gets it…”
“Oh shit,” Harper sprinted to the garbage and threw up.
“Is she drunk?” T laughed.
Maddox walked into the bathroom and grabbed a bottle of water and paper towels.
“Hey, here,” he handed them to her and she sat back on her heels not looking at him.
“I want to leave,” her voice shook.
Maddox pulled her hair away from her face and rubbed her back as she threw up, “Don’t touch me.”
“Sorry,” he said softly, “Are you alright?”
He took the top off the water and handed it to her. She moved quickly away and slipped on the water that had spilled. He caught her, “Sit for a minute. I’ll make him shut up.”
“DON’T TOUCH ME!”
He spun her around, “Harper? What the hell are you doing here?”
“She came to see you idiot,” Ava smacked him in the back of the head, “and now she is leaving.”
“Like hell she is,” Maddox growled, “Have you been drinking?”
Maddox didn’t wait for her to reply he picked her up and carried her to the bathroom, closed the toilet with his foot and sat her down.
“Leave me alone, this was a really bad idea, sorry, I should not have…”
“Back off asshole,” Ava pushed past him.
“No, you back the fuck off,” Maddox growled, “T come take care of this!”
T grabbed Ava from behind and carried her out of the bathroom. Maddox kicked the door shut and locked it.
He handed her another bottle of water and she looked away with tears falling down her face.
“How much did you drink?”
“I didn’t.”
“Then why were you sick?”
“Seriously Maddox, you’re not fucking stupid, I am not stupid. My coming here was…”
He grabbed her face, “Look at me!”
“I don’t want to,” she tried to hold her breath to stop from sobbing.
“What did you expect when you came here?” Maddox yelled, “Harper, you could have called if you needed something.”
“I didn’t need anything I wanted to see you. I didn’t expect that you were fucking everything that…”
“I didn’t fuck anyone!”
“Oh really, the girls from Denver…”
“They sucked us off Harper, that’s it…”
“That’s it?”
“You knew that’s what went on, I told you that!”
“That was before, Maddox,” Harper pulled away.
“Before what!”
“Oh my God, oh my God. I am so stupid!”
“No, none of this is your…”
“Fuck you!”
Maddox looked confused.
“Fuck you, let me go!”
Maddox held her arms tightly, “I did Harper, and you came to me! I fucking did! What the hell are you doing to me?”
He pulled her in to his arms and held her tightly.
“Don’t you dare!”
“Tell me you hate me!”
“What the hell is wrong with you? Why do you say that to me?”
“Because I know what that means to you and if you can’t love me I want you to hate me!”
“What the hell was I thinking?”
“It doesn’t mean anything Harper, it’s a blow job!”
“Good to know, now let go of me!”
“What’s good to know? What?” He pulled her back and shook her.
“Blow jobs mean nothing. I am going to go fucking…”
“GET OUT!” he let go of her.
“Get out of my way!”
“You’re going to go be just like them!”
“Yep, they seem to be more important to you…”
“Unbelievable,” he grabbed her face and held it as he screamed, “Listen Princess, you are not like them, you are far worse! You fucking know better, and yet, you choose…”
“Take your filthy, fucking hands off me! Don’t you ever talk to me like that again!” Harper slapped him across the face.
“You are such a bitch!” Maddox grabbed her and pushed her against the wall and kissed her.
She started to shake, and he pulled back and then kissed her again, “I have never wanted to hit a woman in my life, and I swear to God Harper… you have gotten me SO amped up.” He kissed her hard again, and she whimpered and opened her mouth to him. His tongue licked hers harshly, and his hand moved up her dress. Her head was spinning, and her body began to burn everywhere, “Tell me to stop, Harper… or I am going to nail you against this fucking wall.”
She pushed her hands against his chest and began to cry. “Tell me to stop, Harper.”
She shook her head no and kissed him. His finger pushed into her harshly, and she gasped and reached down and unbuttoned his pants and grabbed him firmly. He groaned and pushed into her hand as she stroked him. He pulled her dress up then pulled her legs around him and rammed into her savagely. She bit down on his shoulder, and he squeezed her ass firmly and thrust into her over and over again. She whimpered and he felt her squeezing around him.
“You have to stop,” Harper moaned against his neck.
“No, this is mine,” he pushed up hard, and she came again.
“You're not wearing, oh God, stop,” She moaned.
“Say your tight little pussy is mine,” he growled in her ear.
“Fuck you,” Harper quivered.
He pulled out quickly and emptied into a tissue.
She fixed her dress and started to open the door, he kicked it shut and leaned against it.
“Is that why you came here, Harper?”
“Yes, just like all the others but worse.”
He didn’t say a word he looked her up and down.
“Move please.”
He grabbed her hand and held it to his chest as he glared into her eyes. He let go of her hand and opened the door.
T was sitting on the floor in front of Ava rubbing her feet and smiling like a fool up at her, “Okay I am done with you,” she pulled her foot away and stood, “You ready?”
“Yes,” Harper didn’t stop she walked out the door quickly.
“She loves you--- you idiot,” Ava snapped at Maddox and walked after Harper.
Maddox took a deep breath and looked down at T, “What the hell are you doing?”
“Whatever she asks,” T covered his face and fell back on the floor and laughed.
Ava caught up to Harper and grabbed her hand, “You okay?”
“No, I just want to get the hell out of here, I hate him!”
“HEY!” they heard a voice and turned around to Jazz running towards them, “What are you doing here?”
“It was a mistake Jazz, it won't be happening again, he’s all yours,” Harper started to walk away.
“So did you two get each other off in front of him? He likes that you know,” she ran and grabbed Harper’s arm stopping her, “He used to love when I brought someone home, he would get fucked up and watch us go at it and then whoever she was would suck him off as he pleasured me. Is that what you did Harper?”
“You’re fucking…”
“Ava don’t. Jazz, I came to say goodbye.”
“How did he take it? Was he upset?”
“No Jazz he…”
“You don’t have to answer any of her questions!”
“Ava, no more. It’s done; you don’t have to worry about me anymore.”
“I was never worried about you,” Jazz laughed at her, “When he figures out you’re no better, he’ll be done moping.”
“Well I’m sure he gets it now, Jazz. Goodnight.”
“Yeah, goodnight,” Jazz looked at her confused and walked away.
The gate opened, and they walked into the parking lot.
Ava stopped and hugged her, “Sorry, I’m sorry. We should never have done this, I should never have …”
“No, it needed to be done,” Harper pulled away and held her stomach.
They walked towards the Jeep, and Harper’s stomach turned again and she bent over and threw up again.
The Jeep door opened, and both girls gasped, “Come on let’s get you two back to the house.”
Ava scowled, “What are you doing here?”
“Well you were not at the movies, Ava! Those fucks wouldn’t let me in and the cops…”
“You called the cops!”
“Of course I did. You two take off and lie about where the hell you are going and sneak around with…”
“Call them back and tell them not to come!”
“They wouldn’t come damn it your twenty!”
Harper giggled and looked at Ava who started to laugh. Ava hugged her again.
“Yay we are and we are taking a girls vacation this summer a road trip.”
“Like hell you are!”
“What are you going to do about it? Call the cops?” Ava laughed out loud.
“Get your ass in the Jeep, I’m driving you two have obviously been drinking. Harper is throwing up, you are …out of control and,”
“We have not… jeepers Dad.”
“WHAT!”
“I can handle myself,” Ava laughed and got in the back of the Jeep.
“You sit in the front,” Harper hissed at Ava.
“No way--- he’s PISSED,” Ava laughed.
